I don't want to assume, but it seems to me that you haven't really changed your relationship to food on an emotional level. I lost a lot of weight and don't feel like you at all, because I changed my relationship to food to one of fuel instead of comfort or fun. It's not easy, but it's important. And it's not like I hate food or anything, I still like food obviously, but when I'm filling up my plate for dinner I put enough on it to feed my actual physical hunger, not some emotional hunger for dopamine. The fact that it's delicious is an added bonus, not the main event.
I don't want to assume, but it seems to me that you haven't really changed your relationship to food on an emotional level. I lost a lot of weight and don't feel like you at all, because I changed my relationship to food to one of fuel instead of comfort or fun. It's not easy, but it's important. And it's not like I hate food or anything, I still like food obviously, but when I'm filling up my plate for dinner I put enough on it to feed my actual physical hunger, not some emotional hunger for dopamine. The fact that it's delicious is an added bonus, not the main event.