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Cake day: February 23rd, 2024

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  • Honestly, it’s not gonna be 10 more years of misery for me cause I’m not gonna stick around for it. I’ve been deeply depressed for about 20 years and I’m probably gonna call it long before that if you know what I mean.

    I also feel scarred by my ex’s actions. How can someone watch you build your life around them, make every decision with them in mind for nearly a decade, and then impulsively discard you the second they want attention from someone new? Just to add insult to injury, she manipulated me to keep me providing for her for months under the guise that she was trying to repair the relationship when she was really just trying to work out a seamless escape route. The constant stress fucked my mind to the point that I lost my job 2 weeks after she left. Still unemployed and too depressed to even begin looking for another one.

    Just makes me realize that there’s nothing anyone can do to secure their future. There’s a lot we do to give us a feeling that our future is safe, but it never is. That’s not even really my main problem… I genuinely don’t think it’s possible for me to be happy. I don’t think my soulmate is out there.