Forgive the one person responsible for ruining my life and abandoning my dreams? Sorry, best I can do is rumination and lifelong social anxiety.mpg.

Literally this

Forgiving yourself is sometimes the hardest. But if you don't do it, it holds you back. Don't be too hard on yourself. Take care of yourself and forgive yourself for your mess ups.

You can't tell me what to do!

For what?

Not allowed